Paul,
I'm sorry to hear about your loss. Losing a loved one, no matter who they are is always a devastating thing. Myself, I lost my fiance, Misty Lee Rogers, 2 weeks before our wedding day, she was 25. She passed away on July 21, 2005, and I miss her terribly everyday that I wake up.
People will say that time will heal your pain. Its not the time that heals you. It's knowing that they are still with you. In your heart, in your thoughts, in your prayers, and in your dreams.
While writing this I broke down a few times thinking of Misty. It's tough for me not to. I want to extend my hand to you, that if you ever need anyone to talk to. Whether it's advice, or just to listen.. Please feel free to contact me. I'm sorry for your loss, and my prayers are for you and your family.